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chatted for a bit. She told me to wait a second and that   also frightened.
        she had something for me. So, I did. She ran off into the   -So this is it. She said. I couldn’t make out whether it was
        back and came out with yet another CD she had thought   curiosity, disappointment or mockery in her voice.
        I would like. But then she said something that caught me
        off guard;                                             -After you. I said as I held the door open for her. We went
                                                               up the stairs that lead into the room.
        -I want to see it.
                                                               -Welcome home.
        I didn’t understand at first.
                                                               She  had  already started looking  around,  carefully
        -See what?
                                                               inspecting every little detail from the stains on the couch
        -The  lighthouse, we’ve  known  each other for twelve   to the leaky faucet. Then she went over to the ribbon like
        years. I think I deserve to see your home.             window that sealed everything together. Her eyes grew
                                                               wider like she couldn’t believe her eyes.
        -Why would you want to see the lighthouse?
                                                               -Look at that view.
        - I want to see why you would want to live there, plus we
        could get to know eachother better.                    To be completely honest I don’t think I had ever looked at
        I was baffled, why would she want to see it after all these   the view like she did until now. It was truly breathtaking.
                                                               On one side you could see the deepest blue ocean lit
        years and I thought we knew each other pretty well. But   by  the  lantern of  the  lighthouse,  on  the  other, it was
        I didn’t want to upset her, she was the only person I liked   an endless chain of hills covered by trees of countless
        to talk to and I didn’t want that to change.
                                                               shades of green. She had made me see the beauty that
        -What time do you get off? It was a quarter to eight p.m.   I hadn’t been able to see in the past twelve years
        right now.
                                                               -If  you  like  this  you  should  come check  out  the  view
        -In an hour, wait…are  you really going to take me up   upstairs…oh  and  take  your  coat. I  helped  her  up  the
        there?                                                 ladder.
        -Well, you just said you wanted me to, did you not? Take a   She couldn’t believe her eyes. I laughed at her reaction.
        coat, it’ll be cold. We’ll be there by ten o’clock and I’ll drive   She  was  the  first  to  make  me  laugh  in  a  very  long
        you back tomorrow evening.                             time.

        I didn’t know what came over me. I had never let another   -What do you think?
        person into the lighthouse before. I wasn’t sure if it was
        tidy enough  for guests, I didn’t  even know what tidy   -It’s incredible. She looked like she could cry while she
        enough for guests meant. What did it mean?             was shivering from the cold.
                                                               -Let’s get back inside, I’ll make you some tea.
        For years the lighthouse  was my sanctuary, locked
        away in  no  man’s land,  all mine. Was that bad? I    -I would like that.
        thought to myself. I didn’t know. I actually didn’t know.   We got back inside and I put on the kettle.
        Had I protected my peace a little too hard? What was
        I supposed to do now? The room wasn’t clean, every     -I get it now.
        belonging I ever had was all over the place, the faucet   -What do you get?
        was leaking, the mirror was stained so was the couch. It
        was embarrassing, but there was no going back now. She   -I  get why  you would  want to  live  here. Who  wouldn’t
        wanted to see where I lived and I couldn’t say no because   want to wake up  to this view? She  said as she was
        I didn’t want to hurt her. I didn’t want to hurt anyone,   getting comfortable on the couch. It was a little past one
        that was the whole point. I was rambling to myself about   a.m.
        all sorts of reasons why  I shouldn’t  let Sherry see the   I went back over to the counter to get the tea ready but
        lighthouse but kept coming up empty handed. I watched   when I turned back, she had fallen asleep. She looked
        the hour hand chase the minute hand in the clock that   peaceful; I gave her a blanket then walked over to the
        very obviously came with a magazine on the faded yellow   window.
        wall of the only grocery store of this very small town. As I
        kept on listing everything wrong with the lighthouse the   I wanted to wake up tomorrow morning.
        minutes passed and before I knew, the entire hour had
        passed.
                                                                                              Duru Şengöçmen
        -I’m ready.

        -Oh, alright, let’s go then.
        We got in the truck and I started driving. I put on the new
        CD she gave me and kept driving through the night until
        we made it to the giant striped tower. She got out of the
        car, walked around a little bit. She looked fascinated but
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